Schedule Nazi

I'm an account manager for a living. I love what I do. I manage timelines for a living. Before I had a child, I have always been big on schedules. Ask anyone who knows me well and you'll be told that I plan out my life to a "T."

So, I guess it's God's sense of humor to bless me with a child that I adore, that won't stay on a schedule for more than three days at a time, if that. (Okay, I now am slowly understanding that ALL children are like this.)

While I was pregnant, I read all sorts of books on how to keep a baby on a schedule and tips and tricks. So, when Jack came into the world, I really thought I had that part all figured out.

I'm slowly beginning to understand that my child is not a robot. (I'm not going to lie, at 3 in the morning, I wish he were...at least a little bit like one.)

God is teaching me to let go of the control. And I think it's because he wants me to give up more control to Him, which is something that I have struggled with all of my life.

Having Jackson come into our lives has not only taught me a love for my son and husband that was completely unimaginable before, but it has also taught me to love my Creator even more.

And now, I just have to realize this blessing at 1am, 2am, 3am, or 5:30am.

Love.