Tuesday, October 11, 2011

To look back and see what's coming forward

I can't believe that I can say that Jackson is 26 weeks and 1 day today. We are past the Viability day, which is such a blessing. This means that if was born today he'd have a better than 50/50 chance of surviving. God is so good!

Now-a-days, Jackson loves to kick me as hard as he can at very random times of the day. But, I just love every minute of it! To think that he's over two pounds is just amazing.

Not much new news to report since my last entry on Jack. These days seem to be extremely busy with work and looking towards the future. I can't believe how fast time has gone. Aaron and I are starting to get a bit nervous and stressed for when Jack is actually here. In the day care and work front mostly. Looking up day cares and seeing that they can run at $1,500 a month is extremely frustrating and disheartening. But, we have to keep re-focusing that God is in control and has a plan for us. We just need to take this a day at a time and enjoy the ride and continuously count our blessings.

It's funny how your stress switches from either health of the baby or what you're going to do when he's actually here. The "actually here" stress is getting more and more real. Questions arise of, "how will this change Aaron and I's relationship?" or "how am I going to live with only 4 hours a sleep a night with a full time career?" or more simply, "can I handle that many poopy diapers in a day?"

We have signed up for all of our prep classes for labor, delivery, breastfeeding, and infant CPR. All of the classes are scattered throughout the next two months. I'm starting to not look forward to the labor part of all of this. Until now, I was able to say, "oh it's not for a long time!" But the bigger he gets, the more I realize this has to happen. Going to the class will just make it so much more....real!

To love the simple pleasures of the miracle of pregnancy, Jack wasn't moving much at all this evening. Aaron, after working came over to my tummy and started to talk and love Jackson. He immediately started kicking and rolling around all over the place.

What a little love.

I'll finish this long winded entry with a picture from Hawaii. My parents blessed the 6 of us with a 7 day trip to Hawaii. It was unbelievably amazing, fantastic and wonderful. A lot of great memories and laughs will be cherished for a long time. What a great "last trip" as just the six of us.



Baby shower number one is this weekend in Colorado! Let's hope I can make it through this work week and not be too exhausted to enjoy it!